It is a crazy, crazy, feeling. I see that
thanks to all of you for asking and checking in on me.
.so I know it is not cured..
.but the antibiotics are to be taken for three weeks,
Talk about expensive...
but I'll pay
..but it's all good .
I get to spend a little more time with her.
Poor kid.
has been written up twice this week. Once for calling a girl (who was
.since Saturday. I think he is worried that I will go out again this weekend.
he he...
But we are getting back into that rut again. I hate that rut ..
.same thing every single freaking day. .
..I need out of it.
which I love. I think
..nothing wrong with that.
I will. Now, I was talking to my friend this week and
asked who I was talking to. I told him, and he right away pipes up with, Are
You know how a song comes on and all the girls look at eachother
that we do do...
but I
for food, clothes, electronics, look at cars,
huge wind gusts, rain, hail, and freezing,
.doesn't
! I do not KNOW what is up with me. I think it is those crazy
They seem so real!! Why do they have to seem so real?
I need to snap out of it. I keep thinking of a blog that I read the other day and commented on..
.the drawer..
.that freaking drawer keeps opening every so often and even
I was invited to several rooms within close vicinity of the club...
by
We talked
.rubbed my back and
.and been really bad, but I CHOSE not to. Those of you
..if you had seen this guy, as my friend
..even tho I had his number as he so
..is that why I am quite the mood.
..yummy!
It was delicious.
! I don't want to gain ANY weight. I have
Since then, I have lost about 3 of the 5. Whew!!
It is so hard to NOT gain weight. But it is
..I am going to sweep, mop
We were going to go do some major shopping after pictures, but it has been raining here all morning and I don't/won't drive in the rain...
not that far. Fear..
.of driving while it's raining?!
So things are looking good there
's prom pictures. Just give me a couple of days! We are taking family pics today.
..so when we get the proofs, I'll send those too!
.right after I got to work. I was sitting there trying to organize the homework
Like that is going to help! I just needed to hear his voice!
He gets to the phone...
.. You do that, but I have a doctors appointment at 10.
..and will need one by then.
..thanks.
Off I go. By 9:30 they have a sub for me. I leave and come home to lay down until 10:00.
I go to the doctor and she reviews my CT scan from the previous week.
.it was the pain (in my head)that was killing me!!
I swear...
it felt like someone is/was grabbing my brain and twisting it. It hurt that bad!!
a very stong antibiotic prescription and another for pain...
a prescrption pain killer. God I love those. I had run out from my last prescription of pain killers .
..so this was good.
I also got flonase to help clear things up!
..which means I will need two surgeries this summer.
..so cross your fingers and pray that
j. is off and we are all off!!
This has been a good year for holidays as
so this has been a good year with family time. We have four days off from school. That is great.
I need the time too...
the meds are working, but the rest will help greatly.
..she suffers from PMS too and
she turns into me during that time.It is scary to see me. So I cut her some slack in that area. I know how it feels.
Progress reports will come out soon
..the pain killer is starting to wear off.
..I am beginning to see spots, and if I turn my head too much.
..I can feel the pain coming on strong.
.or those that requested a picture..
.a picture. I won't post a picture on my space as I have some people who monitor my space daily and I do not want them to see my litle girl.
And it is not any of you on my friends list...
it is a local person who does not like me
so if you asked to see a picture...
I will send one via email sometime this weekend.
There would be a knock at the door and h.j.
!! Some of these kids I had in 5th grade and it was amazing to see them transformed before
It a weird, strange feeling.
A happy, sad feeling. It is hard to explain, but I am sure that those of you who are in the It is time for me to log off as I have to finish laundry and sweep, mop, and vaccuum.Then I am off to work to get things ready for the week. I also need to go to the W store, even though I hate to, but I want to get Easter stuff now because next weekend it will be a crazy place in there. I hope you all enjoy your week.
I'm sure I'll be talking to many of you soon via spaces...
blogwalking. Take care.
By the way, Happy April Fool's Day..no money taken for insurance!
..so I just have about $100.
00 taken out for dual insurances on vision and dental along with union dues, life, and disability...
so my check was a little over $100 more!!
Today I noticed they put it as another spring break!! Hello!
! We already had spring break and it is Easter. We have to be careful what we celebrate cuz others might get offended at having Easter Monday off and Good Friday off!
!
...
already. Only cuz I've been getting these headaches and they wipe me out! So 4 days next week, along weekend and Monday off plus we
get to..how I hate to not be able to sleep!
It is as bad as having nightmares...
I don't know which is worse!!
The car is DEAD!! We got a call from the insurance company.
And the damage is worth more than it is worth by blue book. For airbag replacement alone and to replace the dash is nearly $4000.00 and that is not including the damage to the front end and side AND to the front end as well.
..previous pole dent.
That was my doing!

I am winning with 2! Oh well, life goes on and no one was hurt. We are looking at a check of about $7500.
00 which we will use to buy a used car for h.j. One that is about $4-5000.
00. The rest we are going to use to buy new tires for the truck and fix that up a little, and put some in savings.
So it is all good.
That car only has 25,000 miles on it! I have faithfully paid my insurance every month on every vehicle so they have to pay what the value of it is since they totalled it!!
Right? I am a fighter and will get what it is worth!!
! Now I am exhausted.
j.'s grades changed from report cards from on F to a C. All work was done so she gets the right grade.
That cheered us up!!
Yippee!!
That is the best Friday of all.
Now I've got papers to grade and help the kids with their homework and go over the behavior plan with the kids too. Hope you all enjoy your week and I will be around blogwalking soon.
So I checked my voice mail and answering machine and nada nothing ...
no message. So I guess no newS is good news? I had a CT scan to see if I had/have a blockage in my sinuses, because the dr.
thinks that may be what are causing migraines...
which are coming more and more frequently and boy...
they take me down...
for four days!! I will lay in bed for 4 days and do nothing but sleep .
I cannot live like that!! It is horrible.
So, I have been taking migraine pills and have a new pill that I take at any sign of a migraine and it disolves and is supposed to stop the migraine from coming, but I haven't had to use it yet. Hopefully I won't have to. I have been on antibiotics and I hope that is clearing up any infection.
..blockage.
..whatever is wrong up there!
Then, all will be well! When I hear what is up..
.I'll let you know.
..Anna Nicole Smith's autopsy report.
..Accidental overdose
!Not surprised. In the last 6 months, I have received or been prescribed (by two different doctors) approximately 6-8 prescriptions. Why?
You ask? Well, they prescribe one medicine that doesn't work..
.so they prescribe another. One prescription I was given 3 scribes.
..an antibioitic, a migraine scribe, and a prescription nasal spray!
That did not include the migrained pills I already had and had been using, my 2 regular medicines that I take, or my nightly use of melatonin for sleep aid. That is 6..
.right there. I don't take them all at once, but I probably have 8-10 prscription drugs
in my medicine/lock box.I don't take them all. I have a sleeping pill scribe that is there..
.just in case, and a anxiety pill..
.just in case, etc..
.I can see how it can happen, especially if you just lost you first born and only child for 20 years. I bet I would take more of the medicines I have if I had to live through the hell of losing a child.
..no matter what the age!
!
.There are no words to express how she must have felt. I think she died of a broken heart .
..that is what I think.
On Thursday, we, (b.j. the kids and I), took my mom to eat at her favorite place in the big city.
..about 75 miles away from my small town.
j ete steak and shrimp, and h.j., m.
j., and my mom ate the ultimate feast which contains~
All of us ate everything on our plates...
it was that good!!
..I love being in a book store as it is so fun to cruise the aisles and aisles of books, especially children's books!
! We had a nice ride home, reading and discussing the books that we had purchased.
j. Boy, her grandpa laid into her..
.the first time he EVER raised his voice. He told her to be glad that she has what
! Boy, she
j. We are going to have family meetings and start
Thanks for your comments...
it's abvious that some people like bright colors
So...
we will know what
is actually doing quite well without
I am going to sign off for now...
I am extremely tired and have to have
Some of you may have fainted from the brightness! Be honest now. My mother in law came by earlier after I called her and told her to come see my newly painted laundry room.
Unfortanately, I did not see the look on her face when she first saw it, but my husband said it was close to what the little smiley did before he faints! But she was real nice about it and said she REALLY liked it!!
I beleived her kind words...
but b.j. says they were just kinds words because HE saw the look on her face!
! She was mostly shocked because everyroom, except the kids' room are white..
.white as white can be. So she was really shocked.
She was expecting white, white, white laundry room! But instead saw a very, very green painted laundry/pantry room!!
oh, it is not that bad. But it is..
.really it is. I am lover of white paint.
I don't know what got into me to tell my husband green when he asked me what color I would want to paint it. I don't know what on earth I was thinking
?...
I have more to share...
but it is already past 11 o'clock. past my bed time and I have a doctor's appointment in the morning and can't sleep in. I just wanted to share this with y'all so you could see before laundry room and after laundry room.
Let me know what you think about our green room. Like it? Too bright?
Love it? Hate it? LYAO?
Be honest...
you won't hurt my feelings.
.took all the cabinet liners off and washed the walls. Now we are ready to paint.
j. went to get hair cuts so when they get home we will start. I took before pictures and I will take after pictures.
We are painting in a light pastelish color green. A little bit brighter than this color! Of course, the rest of the house is trashed just from cleaning out the pantry/laundry room because we took EVERYTHING out and all that stuff is in the living room, kitchen, and dining room.
I cannot believe how much junk we had in there. And under the appliances..
yuck. Not as bad as i thought, but not all that clean either. The kitchen is probably worse and we'll clean under those appliances today.
Then we have two rooms done during spring break . Then we are going to go shop in albuquerque a day and b.j.
is going to go look for antlers one day while I go to lunch with a friend. So after today..
.we will stop cleaning and finish up on Saturday and be done by Sunday. I will have to go work a while on Sunday.
..about an hours worth since I didn't get everything done on FRIDAY since it was parent/teacher conference day.
But I got more than half done so an hour, hour and a half and i'll be done and that is all the time i am spending at the school during my vacation...
1.5 hours!!
I think I will go prep to paint. YOU have a great day..
.I have no updates on the car. Insurance is checking into it.
WE pay only 500...
that is the deductible. It may be a total loss..
.since the airbags deployed that alone is 3000.$ to fix.
..at least.
So we'll no more on Thursday.
?
if you look under my pictures you will see that this was written through someones status message and i took a picture of it for you to see and give me your input on what you think this person might mean. I think, because this person, hates me, that it is a way of saying that my daughter deserved to be in a car wreck. What do you think?
I answered it and it was h.j. crying.
.. Mom.
.there was a..
.a..
.a..
.cat in the road and I swerved to miss it and I hit a pole!
*sob* *sob*
j. was and her and her friend were okay, but the car was not in good shape! Which, of course, is okay.
As long as the kids were okay. But lots of damage to the car..
.poor h.j.
was freaked. She now knows that she doesn't have a car to drive for quite a while!!
Poor thing.
That is the only vehicle that we have her insured on and we won't put her on the other cars, so she is now carless!!
!
is doing well. She went to go eat at a friends house and she just called to say her and her friend are coming over to die their hair!!
So she is all good. Thank God!!
!
s report card. Mind you, I was petrified to get her report card because as far as I knew she didn't get or do any of her make up work from when she was in the hospital!!
! I had met with then and they had a plan to where she could catch up, but every time I asked h.j.
about it, she said that they weren't
Her grades weren't straight F's as I imagined! They were actually decent. She had one F, but that was a scare tactic from the teacher.
She was one point away from a D, but the teacher didn't give her the point because she wanted her to put more effort and work harder this last nine weeks, and since she is doing soooo much better, I know she will improve.
So, really, the only thing wrong was that they didn't inform me that they were just grading her on what she had completed before she had been absent so long. That little bit of info would have been a huge stress relief for me if I had known.
H.j. didn't have to know because she might take advantage as that is a trait of many kids!
! So we are all happy on the home front and may end up out of town more than once in the next 9 days!!
I finally …hoping that when I do get back on, Testing is done! Hurray!!
Only 3 make-ups today! I don’t think my kids did too well in math! Why?
You ask? It is too early to test these kids! Most of the material had not yet been taught…so the poor kids…they tried their best.
…and think and think until finally one fell asleep! Did I wake him up? No, I let him sleep.
Why? He was He woke and finished his test just as all the rest! I am 100% caught up with work and I am actually even ahead.
conference schedules are set. All papers are graded. All lesson plans are done.
And all material is ready for the upcoming week. One made the “A” honor roll! That is 63% of my class!
Some were close, by just 0.1 so next time…good luck. We are going to stop first in Roswell to see the Alien Museum!
Then we are going to see the Alamo! I was thinking…yeah…thinking the other night. I thought…did I not claim h.
j.’s braces on our income tax?!
No…I had not! So…off I go to H R block and explain my problem. I paid at least $10,000 on that face…do I get a tax break.
I asked. What did they say? Yes…let’s complete an addendum on your tax form.
We do and…to my pleasant surprise…we got back another $1300.00 paid ($68.00) and nearly $400.
00 more!! How great is that?
! My dryer broke down! I thought I was going to have to do without, and I though we would have to use some of our vacation money, but my handy hubby got only cost $40.
00, so I love him even more! I can’t get on the net! Aarrgghh!
! I wish, I wish, I could do without…but obviously when she evaluated my teaching. This, even though she really doesn’t like me because I am a strong union member and a union rep.
That just proves that a good teacher can be in the union and still teach productively! services until Monday. Damn it!
!! Oh, that makes me mad!
! WTF? The person who was supposed to come today didn’t get the freaking email!
I am pissed and having withdrawals!! …and don’t have as much time to be on the net.
I am very disappointed with Qwest! And what is the deal…? I called Qwest 3 times!
Each time I talked to someone who had very strong accents!!
?!
I guess I’ll vaccuum and go to sleep. That is all I can do and it is only 8 thirty p.m.
I’ll just get more done in the next couple of days!? Right?
Like clean my closet. Or clean the pantry? I can get more sleep.
I can make some science tests or clean out my bottom filing drawer cabinet. How about go to dinner with a friend? I can clean the kitchen cabinets.
I can clean under the beds. I can wash the windows and shampoo the rugs. I can cook breakfast, lunch, and dinner, for once!
Nah…I think I’ll just go to bed! I am upset with my family because they cannot get along. The kids fight with each other; b.
j. argues with m.j.
and b.j. and I argue over the arguing!
It makes me sooooooooo sad to see that my husband does not have good relationships with his two children. How sad is that? It makes me really sad
and makes me think twice about going on a family vacation.
Maybe I’ll just fly to Reno again (by myself) and stay there while b.j. and the kids go do something and learn to be around each other!
I can just see all of us (together) driving 12 hours…Not a nice thought! *sniff* *sniff* I don’t know what to do. I have a week to think about it.
I’ve already had second thoughts (of not going) before the battle begun today…I’m just tired and have thought that staying home for a week and just relaxing would be so nice. I am so tired and have had such a hard time getting over this sinus crap that doesn’t seem to leave. I’m always exhausted!
I just don’t want to go on a vacation if we can’t get along as a family. *sigh*
Maybe I’m just over reacting and having POST menstrual sadness! That seems to happen lately.That is why I can’t wait to have my surgery and be done with all this PMS crap! Okay…guess I’ll watch the 1 vs. 100 and The Apprentice and hit the sac.
This time change is going to have me all worn out by the end of this week. I HATE THE TIME CHANGE!!
! Why do they wreck havoc on us twice a year with the time change? Ugh…I don’t have anything nice to say…so I’ll just say goodbye for now and HOPE they get this net problem fixed BEFORE I get home from work tomorrow.
Night y’all. Now I am REALLY pissed off!!
They said they would have it done by today. So I get home from work and Qwest is here (JUST GOT HERE) and he tells me it is the outside lines and that he won’t need to come inside…so I go run a couple of errands and come back home and I see that he is still working on it. We go to register h.
j. for her junior year and as we leave…I look and he is gone..
.WTF..
.
! I had just looked at the modem and it was still flashing!
? I thought…”Well, I’ll check when I get home. I get home…NO INTERNET!
!! Aarrgghh!
! I call them and they inform me that it will be fixed within a couple of hours or by early morning! Like, thanks a lot!
! A lot of good that is going to do me now! It is 7 06 p.
m…let see how long it takes?! I guess I am just in a shitty ass mood.
I am grumpy and I hate it when people are incompetent. The high school admin and teachers/counselors have pissed me off and they are going to see the bitch in me when I go Friday for conferences! I have called, left messages, sent notes, left voice mails… I hate it when people don’t call you back.
I asked h.j. ten million times if she was caught up and she says the teachers wouldn’t give her the work because she needed this…so I sent it, then they said they need that…so I sent that.
Finally I left messages and still…I don’t think or know if h.j. ever finished her work from when she was in the hospital…no one filled me in as to what she needed to do…two teachers said they wouldn’t have her make up the work because they didn’t want to overwhelm her any more, they would just start her off where they were currently, so that was nice, but the other teachers said to be done at school.
H.j. said they never did what they told me they were going to do…so now I am worried sick that she has F’s!
I know a lot of people say, “Well, she is a sophomore, 15 years old, she should be able to see what needs to be done.” Well, they didn’t and still don’t get to see how mixed up she is or see how unfocused she is. Well, when Friday comes…I’ll see her grades and we’ll go from there!
If I could just change my mood. I feel anger/sadness inside. I am mad at the world!
! I didn’t sleep for crap last night because of “the argument” that occurred yesterday! I don’t want to go on vacation.
I want to just stay home and rest. IS THAT CRAZY OR WHAT? Who doesn’t want to go on vacation?
Well, we went to Reno, NV in June/July and drove over 1000 miles. I hate driving long distances.
The thought of the kids fighting…the thought of what needs to be done here at home…the thought of all of us not getting along!
Oh, I don’t know! I don’t know! B.
j. is upset because I am upset. And he and m.
j. are the ones who set me off!!
Like I said yesterday, I could fly to Reno again just to visit by myself. It won’t cost that much…just the ticket to fly. I’d stay with my brother.
I could stay for 10 days! Or 12 days! I guess I don’t have any good news.
I can’t think of a single good thing. Ahhh…yes…
All my students are absolutely, completely done with testing. We got all the make-up tests done today.So 100% of my students completed their tests! We are DONE! So that torture is over.
Thank God!! Ok…since we are back on a normal schedule, I have papers to grade.
I guess I’ll do that since I can’t be on the internet. I don’t need to cook since no one wants to eat. Why is it that when I cook…everyone already ate.
When I don’t cook, everyone is I hope to talk to you all real soon. Miss ya. Well, the internet, obviously is back.
I did not get hooked back up until I got home from work at
4 o'clock today, March 14, 2007. What a relief! I cannot believe how much I missed it.I am glad to be back!
Vacation is a no go. I just haven't been feeling all that great.Lots of headaches, tiredness, and exhaustion. We might go fishing, go up the mountains, movies, etc..
.And get some stuff done on the home front. We have a lot to do.
We will shop and just hang out. So it isn't really bad news. Just a decision on what we should or shouldn't do.
I don't want to be driving that long with a headache...
migraine...
the dr. said yesterday. It just hurts too much.
The migraines are horrible pain and make me cry and sleep!! So vacation doesn't seem all that good at this time.
We'll just keep saving and go from there. Well, I have got to eat, grade some papers, and then I'll be back for sure!!
Bye for now...
he had just gotten into a fight! Aaarrgghh! He didn't start it, but threw a punch so he is now suspended till Wednesday.
I called the cops again because when m.j. went to walk away the kid broadsided him and knocked him down and kicked him and hit him and all m.
j.could do was lay there and cover himself to block the
kicks/punches! Ooohhhhh!I was pissed off...
wtf...
this kid kept on kicking/hitting and no one around/adults to protect him. His friend finally saw what was going on and tackled the kid to get him off m.j.
The cops came and told that kids that
j. hit back. They both had bloody noses, but m.
j. got the best of it cuz the kid caught him by surprise and kicked while he was down. So i learned today that you have to be 13 to file charges.
..i couldn't as a parent.
..wtf is that?
Oh well, at least the kids was scared and crying when the cops were telling him. And I told his parents that i called the cops because i didn't think it was right for the kid to hit him while he was down! It was all decent and stuff and they were mad at their son for that so.
..okay.
is not in trouble as he did not cause the fight. But he does have to make up his work.
..can't wait till it is over.
..i could give two tests a day, but it overloads and stesses the kids.
..so i take it very slowly.
..some teachers finished last week!
How? I don't know as it takes 2 hours per test and last week were half days. Go figure!